I'm just sayin'!

I am laying here in bed....not wanting to get up.  Looking at a suit that I really don't want to put on.

Today is Jon's mothers' funeral. It is weird b/c I have never met her but feel like I know her.  Jon and I have been through SO much.  He has helped me through with my dad and I plan on doing the same for him.

Today is going to be very awkward though. ......going to a funeral of someone I don't know, only knowing a small handful of people, sitting in the same area as Jon's ex of 10 years (who knew his mom very well)

It is soooo hard b/c I have not had a chance to see Jon this week.  Nothing is harder than being a 20 minute car ride away from him while he is going through all of this and not being there. I understand though.....I am considered "the new guy"....but still makes it hard when Jon went to dinner with his friends/family/ex last night and I wasn't included

I feel extremely selfish right now and I needed to let it all out....thank you live journal!

I just have to remember that I am there to support Jon.....and forget the way I feel for just one day......Can i do this?   I hope so.

Mike

All the memories of 5 months ago (almost to the day) when my father died just got real again.   I just got a phone call from Jon telling me that his mother passed away.  She had lung cancer and brain cancer (just like my dad) and was going through chemo and radiation therapy (just like my dad).

I met Jon just 2 weeks after she was diagnosed so have tried my best to support him the best that I could.  But tonight I feel completely helpless.  I feel like I should be doing something to help.  But all I can do is sit here and type.

Not many of you on here know Jon, but he is the best thing that has ever happened to me.....and knowing that he is going through something that I just went through 5 months ago kills me.

I don't wish it on anyone

I love you Jon  and I love you Dad <B

The other band, One Republic is all over the place. I am soo over hearing "Apologize" so here is another great song that you will soon be hearing a lot, if you havent all ready.

As a proud Denver native, I am so happy to see some of our local bands break through to the mainstream. I was so excited when I was driving around in San Francisco last weekend and heard two back to back songs by bands who are from Denver.

Mind you, they are both WAY over played here but I still thought it was cool.

I'm not usually a big hip-hop fan, but I love the Flobots! I have seen them many times open for bigger acts at some of our local venues like the Fillmore and the Gothic. The video for "Handlebars" is pretty low-budget but makes a grand statement......I think we all will be seeig more of them.

Its been well over a month since my last post. A lot has happened.

- Jon surprised me on my b-day by flying me out to Palm Springs

- Spent a weekend in Vegas and won 800 bucks!

- Went to IBR last weekend in San Francisco...had a blast!

Things back in Denver have been pretty mellow.  I've been working a lot of hours at National Jewish and the Veterinary Hospital to save up money for my Africa trip in May.  I recently found out that my job title is going to vanish in June...this doesn't mean that I am getting laid off but I do need to apply for a new position.  One is a title that is a little lower than where I am at now, and the other (the one I am applying for) is a supervisor postion that means more $$$.  They are interviewing in the middle of March so my fingers are crossed.

Things with Jon and I couldn't be better.  He is definitely the love of my life and i still get that tickle in my tummy everytime I think about him. I am finding the long distance extremely hard though.  As often as I get to see him (2-3 times a month) I still dread when we have to part ways.  I think the hardest part about it is the fact that I am taking it harder than he is.   While I am thinking "I'm not going to see you for 2 weeks!" he is thinking "I can't wait to see you in 2 weeks!".  I hate the fact that I am this way but I am trying to have a more positive outlook on things.  It is definitely something I cannot do long term...thats for sure!

Thats just a quick update for now....I will update you all a little more soon

Mikey

Haven't posted in a while so thought id say something.  

Um.....its my b-day Saturday!  Not sure where Jon is taking me.  I'll find out when I get to the airport Friday morning.

My aunt up in Wyoming had to have emergency surgery last night after she fell and broke her arm.

I am soooo ready for summer!  suppose to be 10 degrees here tomorrow!

I just booked my flight to Vegas next month.  I recently learned how to play Pai Gow Poker on my most recent trip to California, so will be heading down there with Jon and his friends for a Pai Gow extravaganza.

Work blows right now!  Its amazing how many lazy people I work with ugh!

Hoping for a trip to Toronto at the end of March *wink wink*

Hmmm....thats about it!  Happy Tuesday!

Mike

Just woke up! It felt so good to sleep in for a change. This is the first time in a long time. Mom is out of town. She went on a much needed vacation to Vegas with her sister and brother. So I have the house to myself. Going to run a few errands, go over to ubermunkey's to get my head shaved. And then going to watch some football.  Pretty boring eh?

Other than that, nothing else to report.  6 more days until I get to see my man!

Here is a pic of New Years at the Wrangler.  Who is that hot man in the CU hat?  and who are those 2 freaks with him???? YIKES!

We like to drink dontcha know!

07 was BY FAR the toughest year of my life. Losing my grandfather in January, my dad in September, switching jobs, starting a long distance relationship, i could go on and on. As the countdown to 08 began last night my emotions got the best of me...I did pretty good at holding it in but shed a few tears when midnight struck. Jon was there for my New Years kiss, I was there with all of my closest friends sharing the moment so it was something I will never forget.

2008 is going to be different...I can just feel it! There will be lots of travelling for me! (London and South Africa in May, Toronto for Pride....hopefully, and San Francisco monthly) I'll keep doing what I do best....playing softball in the Summer, playing pool, working my little ass off. But I think the most exciting thing for 08 will be continuing to build a long-lasting relationship with Jon. Never before have I been so confident in a relationship. There is ALOT to look forward to this year!

Cheers to a better 08!

Mikey

Merry Christman y'all!

I hope everyone had a great day today.  It was a very memorable one for Denver.  We recieved a record snowfall for Xmas.....almost a foot at my house!  As far as the holiday itself for me, it was one that I am glad is over with.  This is the first holiday without my father and it has definitely left me a little depressed. 

On a better note,  I had an AWESOME visit to San Francisco!  I met some of Jon's friends who are all very cool people, hung out in the Castro which is always fun, went to Cirque Du Soleil, and last but certainly not least...went to In and Out Burger.....LOVE IT!

Oh and I got to spend lots of time with my boyfriend too!

Some pics from San Fran:



Jon's house in Castro Valley overlooking the bay



My honey!



Guererro St on the Castro



The San Fran gang at Brunch getting drunk on Bloody Mary's



Thank Heaven for 7-11 In-N-Out Burger!!!



Two goofballs on a plane.....with a BAD camera!

Well...its my turn to get on a plane for a visit.  I'll be heading on a plane to San Francisco Friday afternoon.  We have a busy weekend planned.  Going to see Cirque Du Soleil Kooza Saturday night which will be fun.  And....its only fair that since I have been parading Jon around to all of my friends here in Denver that he gets to do the same with me.  I am a little nervous but excited at the same time.


Cheers to a great weekend!

Here is a pic from Dave and Charlies holiday party last weekend.

Well..now it has been two days in a row of crapiness.

I got into my car to start it....now it won't start....my neighbor gave it a jump for me...thank god!

I took it to the mechanic and drove my mom's Jeep to work....it took me over an hour!

Sliced my finger at work on a scalpel blade pretty bad....it bled like a stuck pig for an hour.

Got a call from the mechanic...turns out the motor in my power windows was fried.  So to fix that on top of an oil change and a new battery....600 bucks!

YIPPEE!!

At least I get my nightly phone conversation with Jon tonight

Lets try for a better Wednesday!

Pretty shitty day today.  My boss was pms'ing.....my car heater isn't working, i've had a headache all day, and there is nothing good on TV tonight.

Oh well hopefully a better Tuesday!

Peace out!

13 degrees.  6 inches of snow on the ground.  Football on Sunday.  VERY ideal for Mikey!

I had a very long week at work.  I have started picking up some hours at the animal hospital I use to work at.  Mainly to help them out but also so I have the extra cash for my trip to San Fran in 2 weeks.

Last night was a fun night....as all of you know by now.  Jon is making weekly trips to Colorado. This weekend is mostly to see his ailing mother but I did get to see him last night.  Me, Jon and his brother Mike all went out to play trivia at the College Inn. Had a blast!

Meeting his family members is REALLY making me realize how serious this is getting.  Usually this is when I start freaking out. This time I am taking it all in and enjoying every minute of it.  I am actually planning on taking him and my mom out to dinner so they can meet.  VERY out of character for me!

Have a great Sunday

Happy b-day to one of my dearest friends! mason5280 Wish I was there to celebrate it with ya!

Love you!  XOXO
Mikey

What an amazing weekend. I just got home from dropping Jon off at the airport. My first emotion was sadness but knowing that he will be back soon made that emotion very brief. Instead I am extremely happy and fortunate to have met him. I haven't been this happy in a long time.....in a VERY long time. Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on how I look at it) it took meeting him to realize how unhappy I have been in the last year/year and a half.

The weekend was very low-key. We went out to dinner both nights, went to a couple movies, and went to the Wrangler Saturday where he met a large portion of my friends. All of which gave their stamp of approval.

The last 2 days couldn't have been anymore perfect and if I need even an ounce of comfirmation on how much I like this guy....I recieved it today. I can now say that I beleive in love at first sight...b/c it has happened to me.

Have a great week!
Mikey

Well screw December! I still have something to look forward to in November! It turns out that Jon will be making a surprise appearance to Denver tomorrow. I will be picking him up from the airport late tomorrow night and he is staying through Sunday! What an amazing weekend this is going to be! For all my local LJ friends....he wants to make an appearance at the Wrangler so hopefully I get to introduce him to everyone.

WOW!!! GIDDY MIKEY IS OUT IN FORCE RIGHT NOW.

More to come next week.

Peace!

I am sitting here in my living room watching a movie with my mother and sister...happily full! I've been working a lot lately so it was nice to have a day to just wind down and relax. It is also allowing me to think about things....

Until last night, I wasn't even thinking that this is the first Thanksgiving (and major holiday for that matter) that I am spending without my dad. Unfortunately, it did finally hit me....last night at the Wrangler while I was spending time with some of my friends. I just got really quiet and subdued and actually decided to just go home.

I also have Jon on my mind....he has been on my mind a lot lately! How can I like somebody I have never met as much as I like this guy? Are we going to like each other when we meet in person in 2 weeks? What are our kids going to look like? lol

I have ALSO been thinking a lot about what all my friends are doing right now...and how scattered they have become.....Whether it is in Toronto, Austin, California, Florida.....I am very sad I don't get to see all of you as much....but still grateful that I have all of you in my life!

Thanksgiving is a time to spend time with the people you care about....just know that I am thinking of everyone near and far on this lovely day!

Happy Turkey Day everyone!
Mikey